bleugh!

Monday, April 20, 2009 9:30 AM

today is my best friend's birthday.
she turns nineteen.
and id have known her for five,six years now.
she was the first friend i made in secondary school.
it wasn't until 2005 that i realised how important she was to me.
when she suddenly disappeared from my life, i was at a total lost.
and since then, i've trusted her with my heart and soul and life.
we've had our ups and downs, plenty of laughter and plenty of hurt.
there are things that i would and could tell her and no one else.
and i felt so secure with her.
like family.

there are friends that are like family.
friends you've made up your mind to keep, no matter what. for life.
friends that, even though you drift apart sometimes, you will find ways to pull back to you.
sometimes.. we forget that we need them;we think we dont,and push them away.
but you'll come to terms that you need them.
even through life's changing seasons, you want them by your side.
you may change, both of you, drastically, but you want them with you.
because they're not your friends anymore, but part of your family; part of you.

that is who my best friend is to me.
and even though we may not share much anymore, or talk much anymore,
and we only ever meet up as a group, i still love her dearly.
i miss her.
and it pains me that i dont know when and why she hurts;
that i dont feel so much a part of her life anymore.
but im going to pull her back to me.
because i need her.
and i believe she needs me.
maybe im daft or whatever.
but im sentimental.
and im stubborn.
we've gone through so much hurt.
but i still love her dearly, and i miss her so.
i know she reads this.
and this is for you.

love you.

happy birthday,my best friend.
im sorry.

JAX ......out