bleugh!

Tuesday, April 01, 2008 9:27 PM

was in a blogging mood yesterday, but before i had a chance to blog momma made me go to bed ):
ohwell.
went out for dinner at ikeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaa with ying ting loy.
there were funny moments,definitely.
but there were loud,prominent moments of silence too.
i enjoyed myself tremendously.really.
i wouldn mind paying the cab fare for another night out with y'all,really.
in this world money's really nothing compared to so many other wonderful things in life.
it saddened me to see tingting so sad, and it hurt me more that i was not able to help.
i hope that you will be better soon. be your cheery, random self again.
the meatballs and potats at ikea still rock! haha.

id like to add,that even though i dont show it often, there are people in this world i love dearly, really really dearly.
its just difficult for me to express myself. i dont know why, its just very hard.
i dont know what to do, how to go about it, i dislike myself for being like that but thats just the way it is.
i'll try to change, of course, but, that needs time, and time doesn't stop for us.
so whether or not i–we,i–can feel at east talking about or hanging around each other really depends on time and how much effort we put into it.
i do hope one day we can be good friends again, just like that time,long long ago, back in sec 2, in your classroom, studying and laughing together, somewhere after my 14th birthday.
i really miss those days.i just dont know how to tell you that,or dont think you remember them.
yup.

'laugh and the world laughs with you, cry and you cry alone'– i do not believe in this statement.
i believe that even when you cry, there are people willing to cry with you, or lend you their shoulders to cry on.
its just there, within reach, its whether or not you want to reach out for them and let them be there for you.

JAX ......out