bleugh!

Monday, October 29, 2007 8:33 AM

hullo everybody!

-my sister is being such an arse now,so irritating-

ok.
wanted to blog about sth thats disturbed me recently.
ok not really recently,but more so now.
a number of friends have been quitting school.be it jc..poly..blablah.
its disturbing me la.
cos like,everybody's having second thoughts..ppl are changing..
and here i am.i never thought of changing course,never really gave thought to all these..
and its..very unsettling..makes me feel as if..makes me question myself..
am i just being ignorant? everybody's coming to realise if they are suitable for wutever they are doing now.
but me? am i just..blindly doing wut im told,and not really thinking of my future?
am i just naive,ignorant,oblivious to the route im taking,and wut lies ahead of this road?
its very UNSETTLING,not really commenting on wut my friends are doing or on their decisions and misgivings..

the only thoughts i had about this whole thing,were on if i really want to be an interior designer.
but then again,can i make it? am i just stubbornly and very blindly pursuing a dream,or just trying to save face cos ive told alot of ppl wut i want to do?
and most of the time..actually ALL the time..i just dismiss these thoughts..
and i tell myself: i'll just face wutever comes la,and i'll just trust God to lead me along the way.
if i fail,i fail;God has other plans for me.
but am i just using this as an excuse to not think about it too much?..
lol..
looks like,im already thinking too much.
=|

OK.
OH YAH.
i wanted to make special mention of this.. petrichor thing.
i remember right,once,i was telling my brother and some other ppl why i love rain so much(the kaypohs asked me)
so i told them..well,its really the smell of rain i love.
and you know wut
THEY LAUGHED AT ME AND CALLED ME CRAZY.
and i was like a sad,autistic little kid,very lonely,very weird,OSTRACISED FOR MY LOVE OF THE SMELL O' RAIN.
and FINALLY.
TRUSTY OLD 8DAYS SAVED ME.
im a loyal faithful reader of the column by jason hahn,and last week he surprised me by telling readers he,too,has a love for the smell of rain.
AND I WAS LIKE OMG HAPPY.
cos this shows im like NOT WEIRD.
and wut made me happier was that there was actually a term for the smell of rain,
which totally implicates that there are MANY MANY ppl out there who love it,too.
WHICH TOTALLY TOTALLY MAKES ME NOT WEIRD.
im so happy,and i dont know why.
HAHA.
TAKE THAT,STUPID LAMJIAYI.

ok im tired i have night class tmw SO EXCITINGG!!!!
i love my flexible timetable.
cos it means we can rearrange lessons every once in awhile to make some days free.
LIKE THIS FRIDAY.
long weekend,here i come~

oh,and natasha was high today too!
gowri thinks its a virus,cos she only laughs like a hyena everytime she nears our table.

JAX ......out