bleugh!

Friday, September 29, 2006 5:54 AM

hulloo ppl.
today lam feels like sharing.
not the devotions kinda sharing.
sharing of my life. =)
ok im laming.

today school was..well.
B O R I N G.
i mean,wut else can school ever be?FUN?PFFFFTH

ok so today was mostly a boring day.
except for the absoloootly yummy-licious cheesecake baked by sherninny!
yes thats why i did the quiz.for letting you fatten me up=)

ok so the last period of the day was the most intriguing.
yinling was doing a personality test.that profiling thingy.
so i was bored so i decided to be high and do it with her.
end up i do for her and she do for me!
and cally loy kai lei kept sulking cos we DELIBERATELY LEFT HER OUT.
pfffffth.
since when have i ever left you out honey?

ok so through the personality test-we've done a simliar one exactly one year plus ago-and we realised.
how
we've
changed
.
really.
all of us.
i mean.
we'd never have seen the changes in ourselves.
if not for the ppl we spend the most of our time with.
YET it does not mean that whomever you hang out with the most is your best friend.
thats so untrue.
my sworn sister back in primary school and we still have DAMN GOOD CHEMISTRY between us=)
oh yes we proved that to the rest of the world alrights,on teachers' day=))
yeh so im just saying.
although i dont spend all my time with ppl like my sworn sister and erm,say,some other ppl,they are still dearer to me than even ppl who spend literally every school moment with me.
no im not saying anything here ah.
its just that.
i dont know.
absence really makes the heart grow fonder.
it does.really.
well.
so point is.
ive changed.

i realised that alright.

where one year ago i was more 'protected,guarded' i now am,according to cally,more open.
and where one year ago i was playful cheery and pretty wild,i now am 'quiet,reserved'-->i still cant believe this,cally!
how times have changed.
no longer am i the happy happy me.
and you know wt they put for me as the least like me?
'optimistic,cheery,happy'
'sweet,loving,compassionate'

the only thing we can all agree on is
'loyal,true blue'
ah wells.
how ive changed.
from a high s to a high I.
that must be thanks to cally.
influenced me to be influential.
ah wells.

anyways..

yup.
i saw you guys during break today.
how you;ve all grown to be so tall,and grown to be more charming and..yes.
definitely growing up.
im just sad that.
im not there to witness it
and i missed the entire maturing.
growing up.
dargh.
me and my nostalgia.
and i wonder.
yes i wonder.
why is it that all i see,
all i see is just another lemon tree?
ok no link.
but i do ponder.
and wonder.
why why why.
things ever had to be this way.

i know things are really hitting a dead end.
one after the other.
so id just like to say this.
because i really have no other way to tell you all.
in everything you do,follow your heart.
now i believe truly that following your heart can never be wrong.
i resisted my own.
and now i bear the full consequences of it.
and yes.
ive caused so much hurt amongst those involved too.
so much,i can never make up for it.

then i went to study with my favourite study pals.
we're just missing a few of us arent we?
piggy and banana!
i mean,kiwi and banana!
ok just so you guys know,i really enjoy studying with youall
i really enjoy your company.
it never never fails to take my mind off things=)
so please just relent.
and let me take comfort in your company.
that is all i ask for.
i love you all=)

and never again can i study with you.
never again would i visit pacific coffee.
for fear that the hhappy memories we shared there would be erased.
or brought back to me,and make me nostalgic before it hits me hard on the skull.
of the current,and probably permanent status.

ah well.
one less place to consider studying at.

i miss lam.
do you?

JAX ......out