bleugh!

Tuesday, July 18, 2006 5:50 AM

after today i am disgusted at you.
ALL YOU.
no,DONT TELL ME YOU ARE EFFING SORRY,BECAUSE YOU AINT.
forget it man.
i went back to band today.
sectionals?
WUT SHIT IS THAT.
FORGET IT LA.
during the june hols when mrs chua even SUGGESTED that ahband do not take part in syf next year,i felt insulted.and hurt.
NOW I KNOW WHY.
its because you freakin lot dont freakin deserve it and seriously i now understand why mrs chua dont come to band anymore.
she seldom comes now doesnt she.
well i hope she never comes back.
how hurt will SHE be,after guiding ahband so lovingly for so many years,only to see you all give this kind of EFFING attitude.
SHE DONT DESERVE IT.
no,YOU DONT DESERVE HER.
all you ppl who are so freakin irresponsible do not deserve a conductor as kind and loving and patient as mrs chua.
i cant stand it.
selfprac wut shit?
selfprac is for you to improve yourself.
its NOT the same as sectionals.
sectionals is where a section comes together so that they can work on their mistakes together and learn how to blend in with each other.AS A FREAKIN SECTION.
band practice is where the whole band comes together to piece everything nicely together and play music together.
you freakin shits are sec threes.
the leaders of band now.
IN THE FREAKIN COM OR NOT YOU ARE STILL RESPONSIBLE.YOU ARE STILL PART OF BAND.
if you think that its okay if you dont turn up for sectionals or band practices,well,BUZZ OFF.
DONT COME BACK.
dont FEEL SORRY.
when your NOT.
you know,in the trumpet logbook,a senior had written before: a sectional is not a sectional unless the whole section is there.
forget it man,ahband.
i have given up on you.
remember how i said in the previous entry that i want to hate you?
i say it now.
again.
all you guys know is complain complain complain.
you shits really think that there will always be ppl protecting you,sheltering you?
think again.
the sec fours have stepped down.
yes,if you have problems ask.
but can you freakin shits just try to solve it yourself first?
you guys never tried to solve anything.
you guys are so ultrasensitive.
so proud to be.
you think we like to say all this kind of unpleasant things?
you think we tell you that you guys are sensitive for KICKS?
and you guys can just say ''yah i know we're a sensitive batch'' and do absolutely nothing???

you guys have just destroyed wut our alunnis have built up for us over so many years.
completely destroyed it.
yeh,go crying and say im putting you down.
we are always putting you down.
have you guys ever thought why we'd do that?
you think we dont want you to succeed?
wut,we get MONEY if we trash you publicly or sth?
we tell you hoping you guys would change for the better.
i dont know why we even bothered.
why our alumnis bothered.
now,when alumnis come back they are ignored and left waiting and all those shit.
NO WONDER THEY NO LONGER COME BACK.
alumnis are part of ahband,and they helped to build ahband up.
they deserve all the special treatment we can give.
you should not need junhan to tell you to give up your instrument for them.
why are you guys so unintiative?
the foundation the alumnis have so lovingly laid for us.
trashed.in our hands.thwarted.destroyed.by us.
ARE YOU FREAKIN HAPPY NOW?
seeing you guys as it is,no wonder the alumnis wont come back.
cos when i leave,i dont think id want to come back to an empty cold band room.
with all the leaders of the band missing.all the sec threes.
i WONT COME BACK TO THIS SHIT.

can youall respect your peers not.
even if not as the top 5,at least as effing friends?
you thnk its easy for them,to hear it from your own effing mouth that you guys wont come for band without a reason?
you guys are worse than pigs man.
yes,sue me for insulting all you out there.
dont apologise to anyone.
thats all you guys will ever do.
apologise and forget the whole damn thing.

hey man lets forget all this too.

your attitude irks me.
i know you all spend alot of time on the farewell and stuff.
im tellin you,please dont.
even if we were to have the lousiest farewell ever,as long as you guys will persist in your playig skills
you guys spend too much on other things.
get your priorities right.
PLEASE.IM BEGGING YOU.

i am not pinpointing anybody.
if you think its you,its cos of your effing guilty conscience.
that is,if you even HAVE A CONSCIENCE.

JAX ......out