bleugh!

Sunday, June 25, 2006 6:11 AM

im overwhelmed by emotions.(as usual)
but this time..its different.
its nostalgia-wait,is that an emotion?or feelings.are emotions feelings??wutever.
well,yesterday night was our grand and annual ahband handover,or band day.
i didnt know then,but i miss band already.
prior to the handover me and a few others were pretty glad to hand over to the sec threes and throw band politics outta the window.
now,we want to jump out of the window to catch it back,just so we can stay in band a little longer.
its weird,people.and how te mind works.
yeh,we knew we;d miss band..
but so soon???
i never really enjoyed band politics la.
and that coming from me,somebody without a post.
imagine the politics those with posts have to deal with.
O.o
i think theyd jump out of the window.

well...there were arguments and disputes regarding the next band committee.
im sad for some,happy for others.
i did fight for you guys.
but seriously,having a post or not should NOT affect your passion for band.
its more of..whether you let it affect you.
i didnt let it affect me
afterall,im the bochap and weird kinda ppl.
if i had been given a post id have begged them to choose somebody else.
because i know.
i know my playing sucked like hell.
i know my attitude sucked like hell.
i dont deserve the post.
i jumped with joy everytime i hear of a band com meeting
HA.
poor guys.
lol.
why not take this as an opportunity to work on your playing skills?
the time the com ppl use for endless meetings and duties,use it for your selfprac or somethin.
really,its meant to be this way,so you can improve.
do not worry that you will lose passion for band.
tell yourself it wont affect your passion.
your passion for band should come from your love of music,your instrument,the joy that erupts from within you everytime you have band activities(note,i did NOT say band practices =D)
i dont freakin geddit la,why some ppl want posts so badly.
the workload,the stress.......*shudders*
i did not have posts.that did not stop me from loving band.did not stop me from adopting ahband as my second family.
ahband still is my second family,and all in it,ppl i love and play music with.
really really hold the times you have left in band close to your heart,treasure the as though they will slip from you at any single moment.because they do slip from you before you know it.
i miss looking forward and dreading band practices at the same time.
i miss the times we punched each other and played pranks on each other during band pracs.
i miss just sitting outside the music room on the benches(when the choir have long ago gone home to snore away or sth),listening to my family members banging in and out of the band store and room,all chattering away (some screaming even)
i miss sitting beside jiahua and letting her hit my head(thus the migraines)
i miss squabbling with yueyang(okay this is the least i miss)
i miss everything in ahband(excluding the politics la hor)

so i dont want the juniors,or now the most senior batch in ahband,to miss out on the many things i could have done but didnt do in band during the last year.
i love ahband,and i'll never ever forget this second home of mine.
i shall return...when i find the time duh.

ahband handover day'06.

JAX ......out